Paula Bringas

1:13AM - Hmmm,

Well, it has been a while, a really long while after my last blog, which was posted a year ago. It's already 1am and i can't sleep. not yet doing my plate which will be passed ths afternoon at 1. Gosh, i am so feeling lazy all night. i don;t know what to do. I feel so dehydrated but im too lazy to go down and get some water, T_T

anyway, i have been feelling really lazy since after sem break. I guess i am just savoring the post sem break and pre winter lazy/carefree feeling. In another word, relax. Ang sarap sarap mag relax. Well i hope this is just the wheel that ebryone goes thru. Peak of diligence and peak of laziness. Maybe right now i should really enjoy these, because next school year, no more anything like this.

I am so excited for our reunion.It's so fun to plan,a practice for my thesis next year which i under Special Events.

ohmygosh,still have a lot on my mind. but i really gotta go. i just fell asleep on the keyboard!

7:45AM - Random random thinking.

I've been thinking about our gig on dei's big day..
First,wla na c Samantha and now,Genevieve...Wla lng,i was really hoping na mag-jam c Sam(for that night)and that Gen will sing (Lost in Space masterpiece.hehe.)lalo na at nabuo na nmin ang music with beat and organ..

But im still hoping.big time!
God will find a way.I told her already that we can wait until nov 17 night..pag wala tlga,bahala na..
As for sam,she thought about giving dei a surprise which we'll record on nov 7...waaah.Dapat c bravo ang kumanta sa lost in space!!!haha,pero kung wla,....................hahaha

I'm listening to Lucia Micarelli's music right now.referred by sammy last night.She is a violinist.Listen to her music and you'll be amazed http://luciamicarelli.com/

Her music is making me feel that miracles happen.hehe.but true.
Its making me very emotional and i dnt know what else...
I feel like i can fall inlove with anything right now.
I feel like i'm watching THE MUMMY 2 in imax or somewhere.
LIKE IM IN A PLAY AGAIN...ACTING..i know i could join theatre orgs in UST,but i dnt have time for those orgs yet and maybe i just miss
working with my speech and drama friends..oh well.

Well,i talk a lot about music,because i want to avoid blogging my problems...
We were practicing and we have songs of different genres(For dei's bday)

We had our own renditions already:
RnB- Umbrella/Cinderella,my boo,so sick,officially missing you,cry me a river,sexy back,
Bossa: Lost in space
Funky/pop: Cool,This love,Too good to be true
OPM: goodbye

i have more stories,but we have an emergency,gotta go.

Current mood: worried

12:43AM - RANDOM THOUGHTS

RANDOM THOUGHTS

ok,i had a really fun day. First,Ayin, Dei, Pau and I played billiards and counterstrike. I teamed up with Pau. We won the billiard tournament,but then dei and ayin took over Counterstrike.

Tomorow,we'll prepare for Gori's 18th this sunday, we'll perform 5 songs.and we'll just recycle other tracks,because we'll only have 1 practice.that means,we have to play what we already know.
WE NEED TO REALLY POLISH THIS ONE,because we weren't satisfied with our last performance in Aira;s party(at least thats what we think:dei and I).

and then after that,i'll have to prepare for jaki's 18th on the 27th.I'll be performing alone and i don;t know what to sing yet.I wana try singing with a minus one, but i think ill just stick with my guitar

I CAN FEEL THE WARMTH THROUGH THE COLD WINDS OF CHRISTMAS NOW.i miss the HS xmas parties!

I'm so happy about my deeper relationship with music.Iv been appreciating BOSSA because of Sitti.
And fortunately, I WAS REALLY able to get the right tabs of her LOST IN SPACE version(i got them by my self!!haha)...Lately when there are tracks that i want to play, i get the guitar and i,well i surprisingly get the sounds all good.It's a big achievement for me.My hands are having smart minds now.haha.ok this is foolish,im sleepy.

Current mood: cold

11:42PM - after GEN'S 18th...well...... i need an outlet

iv been logging in this acc,but i always get lazy with the typing job,so i always forget to blog.

anyhow,our performance for gen's debut went i dnt know if it was pretty good.but they say it was ok and other people were banging with the beat.
Our first practice ddnt give us any progress,we were all sick and evrythings so hectic.
Second practice was minutes away from Gen's party,im glad we were able to patch things up.

Our trip to the party was so fun..rode in the cab with sam,pau and dei.
talked about everything funny and not.haha
then,we left the sheet stand in the cab,,so iv no sheet stand right now.T_T
but all went well.

Gen was so wonderful.
I was part of the 18 candles. and i was very emotional at that night.But i avoided dramatic lines and stuff cos for sure it will just make me cry.
We wanted to stay at the venue til 1 or when everybody decides to go home,but mama had a migrain attack,so we'll have to leave cos we ' have to take a cab.

So on our way out,we can't find the exit, and the soldiers(?) guarding a certain post
were ALL SO RUDE to us.damn it.They'll be paying for it.MAybe.:)hehe
because we had no car,we had to walk our way out and luckily after 10 minutes of walking,a cab finally arrived.

We planned to go to eastwood just for some drinks,but because of the gtar and the beatbox it would be hard.So we just bought bottles of vodka and celebrated at home.(with dei and pau). I was feeling kind of lonely....i dont know why.

Until now,im having this fast up and down feeling..im not planning the "figure out soon" blah blah....i dnt have any inspiration right now,...but that doesnt mean i wana be in a relationship, i just feel a bit numb..

On thursday we'll be presenting our finals(report) for Natural Science. It's about Levi Celerio and im the choir guitarist.Yeah.pretty neat huh.i dnt have to sing if i dnt want to.

Sem break's almost here and im not ready for it.

11:48PM - im injured

THURSDAY august 24, i started doing my paid job.
gladly,i was able to beat the deadline friday night.

Saturday Aug 25,i started my paid job part 2.
and it aint easy.i always slept at 3-5am(sat-mon).
my work was late.but it was still accepted.

Goodnes,i was so happy about my finished
works..TO MORE SLEEP!
And about my DRFL plate(drawing from life)
w/c was ruined by a wrong medium,still got an
acceptable grade.yey.

i was having a blast til my pe came and ruined
it for me.
My left foot is currently injured.
waaaaah.....tagalo tagalog!
ang sakit na paa ko...!!!!!!!
natalunan ako ng isang lalaki na medyo bading(ok,u ddnt have to know that)

Volleyball,,bench ako cos i was tired and so SLEEPY.,then this boy
accidentally jumped on me cos he was chasing after the ball,
too bad i wasnt looking.
my head,my face and my FOOT were in so much pain.
the coach assisted me,este c coach bglang lumapit,
cos the scene was quite scary...and naiiyak ung boses ko ng
cnabi kong i'm just fine..after 5 mins,naramdaman ko ang sakit.
ang lupit pla...ang tagal mag travel ng motor nerves ko.

anyhow,
i nver noticed how i got home,
because my foot was so sore!!
Now i know the feeling of (not big-time)injury.
I cant walk properly,.T_T
its tolerable in a way.but one wrong move
and u feel like theres a crack in ur bone.nkktkot ang pkiramdam.

alright,i got one word for this.
AWTS
two words.
AWTS TLGA.

1:29PM - shit

Just when u think ur wrong,
you are actually right.
The wake-up calls,
The blurry signs,..
they are actually right,
and i cudnt be more wrong about it.

what a shitty thing

7:54PM - T_T

ok na ko eh..ang saya saya ko na nung sabado ng gbi and the days b4 that iv been experiencing bliss..

viniew mo ang folder na bgong post ko, then felt the butterflies in my stomach..
...i thought i already(bsta)..but evrytime u call me,or evertime u make ur self
reachable,..i feel so energized or i feel like its just a normal thing,
then wen i hung up,i feel so inspired and later on depresed..
i saw you yeah,.i talked to my self and we agreed that upon seeing u,
i dnt really feel anything anymore,
like evrything felt normal,..its nothing,,.but wen u decided to leave,
i just cant help but feel lonely..LONELY LONELY...

btw,.i wana thank my friends who kept MY SECRET.,
my life-long SECRET from my ,i dnt know what term to use,
maybe addiction?...whatever..

mixed emotions...i wana cry really,.
i wana drink my way to this,.
Gusto ko magwala just so il hav a grand outlet.
i wana experience how to break things bigtym,
just so il feel i have a ryt to express what i really feel..
(yes thru breaking things)

i hate ur ways most of the time,.
i hate me everytime u leave.
i hate u wen u stare w/out noticing my feelings..
i hate being left alone with you..cos i know what il feel aftrwards

so much to hate,i wish i can just forget,
but aftr all this,.why can i just do it..
iv been a positive person for 2 months now..
NOW IM at the PEAK OF MY DEPRESSION...AGAIN!

Whoever reads this and wonders who im writing about,
im TELLING U....DONT EVER ASK..
TO THOSE WHO KNOW WHOSE THIS PERSON<i know ul understand me.. thanks.

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Ano ang mgandang gawin sa reunion?

1. Dinner and Bar hop by Pauline.

2. Crame picnic and fud 3p by Dave

3. Crame swimming by Gar

4. Paraiso picnic/Visit Bridge by Pauline and Gar

5. Hiking....Taguig swimming(sea Breeze).Kain sa labas by yopo

6. Tagaytay by SUN PEOPLE

10:39PM - the hood,the show,the story,the wind,my self.(jan 6)

ok,so something told me that i should write a blog.;)i dnt know what that is,..
i just know...
anyway..now im 18!..can u believe it?im actually an adult!
im no longer a stud driver.minor and a kid.
but look at some disadvantages,i cud be imprisoned too,etc etc!haha...
hmmn,so i rcvd great books during my bday

i started reading hp6 at jan3,..but i seriously read it on jan 5..and i finished reading jan 8.
even if its a thrilling novel..i felt good at it..
and now im reading another book.
im being busy again and i love it,cos i ddnt have to think
of things,,,...
so last jan 6,..we went to MOA,cos we ddnt get any tickets
for the pyrolimpics...so we just decided to park at the open lot..
at 7.30..we already bought snacks and headed for the car.

wel,the contest kinda started late.hehe...it started at 8.20 i think.
so wyl waiting for it,.i decided to lie at on the car hood and
read hp,bcos im already halfway and it gets even
more exciting!

then the fireworks started...they were gr8!..i even saw a heart-shaped,,
spherical,bsta lotsa diff shapes,colors,styles and evrything!
its enjoyable,..except for somtyms,u get tired of watching the same ones..but stil,it was fun watching how expensive fireworks work.

then after the 1st set,i was lying and reading again..the 2nd set started
at 10...,ok,same things hapend.

btw...i havent touched my gtar since dec 30..for some reasons..
but now,im studying 3 musical pcs.
one is "you and i both" by jason mraz(gtar)
and "no such thing" ny john mayer,..(gtar)
and "canon"(organ)

and i think il deepen my relationship with music again..
'i just know it..im so glad that the organ is really out again..and i hope
we buy the stand soon,..

thats it for now,..woah,im blogging again...haha...

lotsa stories to tell!BTW,,i edited a pic,and bec im in hurry ryt now,
doesnt look pretty.haha

2:09PM - AN INTERVIEW

questions from GEEQ:

pau... ito na mga tanong mo:

1. kung pipili ka ng taong makakasama mo pureber, sino at bakit?

2. kung di ka sa UST/ CSB, san ka?

3. may tatlong tao sa mundo na pwede mong patayin, sinu-sino sila?

4. baket ako pinag host mo maliban sa pagiging madaldal ko?

5. bakit mataba pisngi mo?

****
1. Kapatid ko!...gus2 ko i2loy nya mga ccmulan kong bsnes or org!
haha/...gotcha!

2. Sa san beda,kse nagbayad nq ng test permit n evrything,tpos
1 ride lng mula d2 s bhay..

3. Ung ibang prof nmin na loko2!wla cang kwenta!!..nkakawawa
ibang cfad students!haha!!...OR,,c BIN LADEN(patay nb un?)
hmn,.at isang adik at kriminal na teenager!..Theyr givin
our generation a bad name.

4. Dahil nkkatawa ka panoorin,2lad ng video mu ng bday mu na
kumanta ka ng yakap s dilim,..saka,wala lng..mga dting gawain ntn!

5. Hoy!..anung tanong yan!haha....genes pare...yun yun.hahaha!!!!

3:17PM - Friday..

well,its 11..i wana rest already..
but my body is stil so active..
hhmnn..we just came from hazel's pool party..
me and my friend dei came there around 7pm..
surprisingly,wer the first ones to arrive..GGRR!haha
so we stopped by her house,,then we brought all the
stuff we need to the clubhouse..
it was a bit dark..the lights wer not dim,but few..
labo.haha
so,jhing and dei went swimin..and bcos i hav my gtar
with me..i kept playing it..
we wer jammin while they wer doin their thing.
the sky wasnt starry,.but it looks good..it looks calm..
i cud just play there all night..

then afetr an hour,hazel and her friends came..
im still singin..
actually,i wana jump in too..but i just cnt leave the guitar..
so,the whole night,,i just played and played..
btw,i saw hazel's youngest sister.she is sooo cute!shes like a carbon
copy of hazel.only smaller!!!!hahaha!!!!speaks like her too!ahah

next week,wel have our college week..me and my friends joined
a contest...haha...theres just one thing we hate!
we had this election thingy for the cfad annual shirt..
SO UNFORTUNATELY...it ddnt win..and we dnt really like the shirt noW!
but we hav to wear it because wer contestants!the contest is on monday..
its like the amazing race...hope we cud win!

Current mood: creative

5:01PM - uggh

its already 1am.i cnt and i dnt wana sleep yet..it's already 2006,
and u havent noticed anything yet.i hate it.i hate it when i cry in the
midst of somthing.its happening right now.
shit.here i go again.dreaming of the same old story i have been
longing to end.i wanted to tell you right there and then.
shit..u were just there,smiling,singing.why am i such a big chicken!
stop smiling at me!stop singing!stop looking at me like that!
stop helping me!stop being just you!..oh no,but if you stopped,
then what wud be the difference!id still cry !ohh meeen!

damn.i dnt know until when im gona stop.but fils like i cnt.
dont try to tell me anything.cos u will nver ever understand.
i have been dreaming of somthing that i desire 4 times already.
evrytime i hear the guitar strum,i hear you.
evrytime i try to be happy,in the midst of it all,i rmmber u!
pprrr...PATHETIC pathetic pathetic me!shit.IM DEPRESSED.i cnt find any
outlet,so im sorry my journal...

Current mood: pessimistic

10:47AM - woah..

the last time i opened my multiply acc was around the month of may....now,i opened it again..and i just uploaded
old photos..good old days..

10:04AM

i dont really do blogs..
not much of a blog person i meant..
im more of a blog viewer..
i like visiting and just commenting..

so the story of my life is pathetic..
yes..still pathetic..

oh but anyway,,im so hapi cos
on oct 28,wer gona perform in
Imma...the skul il always belong!
how i miss performing!

performing-really my passion!
hmmn...anyway..
i have this new addiction..
i keep on watching Lea salonga's videos..
especially her performances when she was
around 18..
last tym i was just addicted to ON MY OWN
of les miserables..now to LEA!..

all i rmmber is,i was reminiscing about
our activities wehn i was in speech and drama club.
then i rmmbered gen singing id giv my life for you
when she was cleopatra,,
then i searched for videos in youtube....after that.,
i found my self watching evry lea salonga video i find..
whew..im appreciating all kinds of music now...except for
hard core!like i cnt understand the lyrics!
hmn,anyway...im stil confused with my life..

but im sure about this one..

i really wana watch her concert!..

Current mood: pensive

10:46PM - hmmmm

for the past month,
somwhat,i have new thoughts again..

i have been sleepless for 3 wks,because of my
plates!damn..
sometimes,i daydream or i just feel like im
asleep with my eyes open...

damn!..college is so diffrent from hyskul!
its way different!

in hyskul,if you finish a project,
u can finish it overnyt.in college,my plates
are so impossible to...i dnt know!..u need miracles
to get it hundred percent ryt.

a friend was here this aftnoon.we just sang,played the guitar,,we simply did the things we used to do with our other friends.
Awww,those people...they make me cry.upon the thought of remembering them..

so anyway,

anyway,at noon,i was walking 6 blocks so i can ride the jeepney i was looking 4..
i missed danica A..oh,she was like my uwi-mate
for 2-3years..haay,i used to linger with this dude.
we ate Munny's strawberry chocolate,bought a lot
of chocolates and chips,hang out,surf the internet,
watch movies,share secrets..eat and eat..haha
thats why a wyl ago,i called her up,and
we just reminised and reminisced.it was so fun!

oh w8,,next entry na muna.hehe

Current mood: gloomy

11:01PM

Current mood: worried*sigh

6:04PM - dulo na halos ng diLa..

this is for me...hehehe!!

Dulo Ng Dila
Pupil

At meron lang naisip
Nang merong mailagay
Para lamang may laman
Para lang merong kulay

Anong kailangan mong marinig?
Makasaysayan? pandaigdig?
ANONG SINABI NG YONG DIBDIB?
Parang ganyan, ganyan, ganyan

Sisindihan ko muna
Nang aking maalala
Makita ko na muna ang
Mensahe na kilala

Hindi na baleng di marinig
Hindi na baleng di mabatid
Bastat nasabi aking dibdib
Mensahe na wala namang laman

Current mood: decided!

10:49AM - STRATEGY

hehe...i decided to make an online journal wer i can write about anything!!!,,but only few people'l know the ad..that way,i wont have any limitation on things that i wanted to write about. ;D

9:22AM - MUSIKAT..and PE..

ysterday,during our CTEC,me and fred were having a heart-2-heart talk..we shared the secrets we kept during our highschool.it was soo fun,
we dont just relate to each other,we're actually on the same boat.hehe..

its already 9..i have my math at 10,and my PE at 1..

my PE is softball..for ladies only..
its kind of funny actually,because i was the only one from advertising,and all my PE clasmates are soo kikay,pretty and all girly,
im imagining how they'r gonna play softball(joke..)hehe..

so for today,i decided to go home wearing my PE outfit..but were not wearing our pe unif yet,,
just substitutes..

for this thursday,im looking for someone who can go to greenhills with me..i wana buy lots of thing ryt now..and i know that il give them extra care..im not being materialistic,
but i wana keep my self busy..

last week,me,irene and pau joined the MUSIKAT..
and last week,i was with geeq and ayin wen we watched Join the CLub..they sang LUNEs,Nobela and TINIG..songs i really wana hear,,hehe..

it was cool..then,me and ayin went to teresa..
ystrday,we also went there..it was fun!..
im really enjoying my times with ayin,she's the only one that i meet(constantly) here in uste,
.but starting now..we cant already..not that we dont want to,but our scheds are very,,somewhat opposite..but its ok!..thats when u find technology useful!..maybe later or tomorrow,wel get our phone line back..nkakainis,last wk pa binayaran,evrytime we complain about it,they say..w8 for it.w8 for it.hehe..
well,ryt now,im having the CFAD look.haha..
next tym,il have the FULL look.haha!!..me and irene planned it.she'll have the COMARTS and il have the CFAD look..

but we put a twist..i dnt know,suddenly,i feel like i wana do some changes..
and this time?..i think CHANGE is good..
but above evrything else,there's this problem that i cnt get over yet..yeah,,thats it..about someonE!!..T_T..cnt do nothing bout it..;'(

8:44AM - HOLD-UP INCIDENT

im in the uste library ryt now..

well,since last week,i have been experiencing happiness..except for june 19..it really broke my heart..because my 2 phones got..

well,its like a hold-up..me and irene were walking in TRABAJO..she was ahead of me,,because there were SOOO many people there,i cant catch up..

well,here's the story..

i was holding my other cellphone because i was replying to an important txt msg.but suddenly i got nervous,.my slacks had no pockets..
my phone cnt fit into my blouse's pocket..
so i placed it in my bag and i put my bag in front of me..suddenly,this gay walked beside me,..
i was trying to walk away..then,that was it..
i cnt do nothing,than think about my life..
they were just phones anyway..talk about my life..hehe..

i just enrolled in ust u know..and we just bought art supplies,i thought about it.hehe..

it would be more expensive to die..hehe..

BUT..when my parents knew about it,i just said
that my bag got slashed..because IF they find out about what really happened,they're not gonna let me commute again..and of course i dnt wnat that to happen..they even said,buti na lng hndi ka hinoldap at dinala kung san san..

well,aftr the incident,me and irene went to centerpoint,i dnt wana go home..

i dont wana go home at that time..
but by 8..i called my father,told him
to fetch us up..then he did..wen we got home,
i got another phone ryt away..

i ddnt wana accept it,but do i have a choice?haha...

for the next weekend,i think they're planning to buy a phone,but im planning,maybe not now,.
and besides,i want to save money and add it up to the budget,so i can have a better phone.hehe

hey,dont think im greedy.I NEED it for my course..
saving images,etc..
hehe..

MYSTERY:..i lost my phones on a monday,
i was thinking more of my sim card.
my pics in that phone,and evrything that i have saved..
but on TUESday,i was kind of ...still happy..
i dnt know.,misery is sort of giving me a good time.it's slowly fading away,though i still think about my past..i mean.the things that i cant accept..btw,i just had the coldest summer ever!..T_T..hehe..